The Show Must Go…ON.
If you have been keeping track I’ve been talking about this talk show (more like a video Q&A) for several months now. The only reason why the show hasn’t taken off is because I am my own worst enemy. I so desperately want to host the show because I can’t image anyone else hosting it but on the other hand I am extremely terrified of hosting a show.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a super shy wallflower—so how am I supposed to interview someone? I have known some people for years and rarely ever say anything more to them than “hello”—pathetic! Part of my shyness comes from the fact that I am star-struck when I’m around my music friends. Sometimes I am so shocked that someone even remembers my name.
The ninjaness is a direct result of my wallflower ways. I actually tend to stick out more than I blend in because a wallflower of my level is rather rare. Add in the fact that I don’t drink alcohol and I think people label me as “that weirdo” more than the label “quiet girl”. Also, I smile most when I’m laughing (whether out of nervousness or sheer humor it’s all the same) and I laugh often. So, no need to worry about me looking sad—I’m probably happier than you.
Does any of this really bother me? No. I just wish I could suppress my shyness long enough to get some interviews filmed. At this point, I’m challenging myself to complete one interview by the end of 2013. I’m going to make it happen—I just need to be pep-talked. You’ll see.
Wish me luck :)